Hello.♥ I'm SZECHI. Turning nineteen on MAY10. :D
I didn’t change. I just grew up, that’s all.
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Saturday, January 29, 2011 @ 12:02 AM
Hi, I'm back! Anyone miss me? School was too stressful for me to adapt. I'm lacking way behind than any other of classmate, sad face. What is really wrong with me? I'm just like any other liar, A BIG FAT LIAR. Saying that I will not touch blackshot for 10months, but what happen in the end? Disappointed in myself..
My dearest sister Drewwwwwwwwwwww!
Alright, maybe no longer. Things wasn't going on well, You and I no longer there for one another. Without me by your side and without you by my side anymore. Still remember those time giving a listen ears whenever I needed someone. Thank you for everything throughout this entire 4years. Thank you for being such a naggy little nanny. Thank you for talking craps and playing with me. Thank you for taking care of me like a small little girl.& Thank you for supporting me all this while.. Till now, we can counted as stranger I guess? I don't know. Whatever, good luck for you Olevel.♥ (:
I know you won't be able to see this, but still I hope..
F.M.L
Saturday, January 22, 2011 @ 2:28 AM Alright, my blog are covering with dirt and dust! At this moment, I couldn't sleep! I was too stress to think of so many problems up in my head. Who can I really look for when I'm having so much family and friends? Perhaps some of my peers already know half of my life story, but who exactly really give me their full attention? All my family and friend issue wasn't getting any better. Sad face X10000
I really hate myself. For not doing the best! At home, I'm forever the worst. Parents that curse his own child to go ITE? In school, who can I really look for? I have so many friends, but I have none to hear my say. Whatever I'm facing now, is just reality! I just have to accept the way God wanted it to be. Karma, remember? I believe...
Worst feelings..
Wednesday, January 12, 2011 @ 11:57 PM Worst Feelings In Life.
- Being told that someone is better than you.
- Knowing that you are being lied to.
- Letting yourself be beat down.
- Crying hard.
- Losing someone close.
- Falling apart because you are alone.
- Being alone because you are falling apart.
- Hating yourself.
- Not being good enough.
- Being mad at someone because you are mad at yourself.
- Best friends falling apart.
- Breaking up.
- Falling out of love.
- Being used.
- Being made fun of.
- Changing for someone else.
- Realising that he doesn't love you anymore.
- Falling asleep alone when he should be next to you.
Here it goes...
Monday, January 10, 2011 @ 5:39 PM
So I did deleted away my blackshot. Is really sad to do this, cause I enjoyed playing this awesome game. When I step in to school this morning, thousand of people luring me to play blackshot. Sad face.
Gotten back my chinese Olevel result, can say is super unexpected & disappointed. Never did I expected I will got back such grade in return. Shall study study study, bye!
Bye blackshot, Hello studies!
Friday, January 07, 2011 @ 10:38 PM So school was giving more and more stress and pressure. I can feel like this ticking bomb is going to explode anytime. I hadn't been handing homework on time, maybe is because I am really into blackshot. Recently, having a mindset to really quit this game. I really like this game, but for the sake of my result I'M QUITTING IT. I do admit that going into this game is because of tony, but oh my! Is so fun! Anyway, I serious about quitting it. So byebye blackshot! :B
To my fucking sister and aunt:
Please fucking fuck off bitches. Who the hell are you to control me, cb!
How's your first day of school?
Tuesday, January 04, 2011 @ 10:16 PM It's the first day of school. School start, student suffer. Sad face. I didn't manage to sleep early yesterday night, I slept at 4AM in the middle of the night. Good game. But surprisingly, I am able to wake up on time to meet both my bodyguard.. Kick start the day with reply hyper mood, people just can't stop saying that I look like a little kiddy schoolgirl. Good or bad? Maybe is because of my colourful backpack, I was like a nerdy schoolgirl. Really pay 90% of attention to all teacher. I tried to force myself not to sleep, but I guess I was just to tired and doze off. After school, went over to meet up the G6guyStanley. Went over to the Jack's Place for lunch. My money fly away like a G6. Sad face. Reached home in the late afternoon, took a short nap. People! I'm done with my chemistry homework.
Boohoo, after completing my homework. Had blackshot session, but was really a fucking match. Shall not mention about it. Nights world!
Happy New Year! ♥
Saturday, January 01, 2011 @ 11:11 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! :D
It's 2011'! To sum up, 2010year pass by like a G6. And to say the fact, it was the worst yet the best year ever. I had experienced many many. No matter is towards family, relationship, friends or studies. 2010year indeed was colourful. But what's the worst thing which bring me down was one word, regret. In 2010, I lost many loved ones. I've lost someone which I love so much and is so dear to me. It was the worst regret and mistake. But that someone also gave me a wonderful experience and most beautiful memories. I finally see whose real and whose not. I learned that things don't come easily unless you work for it. And also, sometimes you just have to expect the unexpected. All those memories that I've gone through this year, I hope 2011 would be a good one. If only the past can be thrown away and move on together with new memories together with this new year. For this new year's resolutions, I will that each and everyone will learn from this past mistake. Stay happy always, and treasure what they have. ♥
To be honest with everyone. I gave a last hit to confess to tony on 31Dec. And of course, the answer given by him wasn't what I wish for. Even though this year countdown was a simple one, I really enjoyed. The above T2outing picture were taken today. Lastly, hope everyone of my friends work hard towards their goal!