Hello.♥ I'm SZECHI. Turning nineteen on MAY10. :D
I didn’t change. I just grew up, that’s all.
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Saturday, March 19, 2011 @ 11:13 PM
I am who I am.
•I’m not that strong.
I’ll always need someone to be there for me when I can’t handle this fucked up life anymore. I’ll always need a shoulder to cry on because sometimes it just gets too hard and all I feel is weakness.
•I cry a lot.
Yeah, I pour my eyes out when I’m hurt. I don’t like seeing people leave if I don’t want them to. I cry at sad cute movies, depressing songs, and lock myself up alone in my room most of the time.
•I get hurt easily.
Words can hurt if I don’t want to hear them from someone I am close to. They can also hurt if I dislike someone. I’m sensitive in the heart. Sometimes I won’t show it but sometimes things just hurt for a while and then I realize that it’s not worth getting hurt over. Especially by the people who I don’t even know any longer.
•I lie to people.
I lie to stop getting into trouble for that moment. I lied to hide who I am or was. I also lie if I don’t want to hurt someone close to me, but I can also hurt the ones I’ve lied to and I have played with peoples emotions hurtfully at one stage to teach them a lesson, or use them. I’ve learnt that anyone can lie though. From the very start. But also learnt, what you once lied will come out one day but will also set you free from your lies.
•I am a bitch.
I have been for a while. I guess the shy innocent little kid I used to be got pissed off somewhere along the way with the shit people in my life and became a rockhard shield at times of anger. I also like to state my point and fight for what I think is right while also knowing what I did wrong. And yes I know I’ve done many wrongs. I’m very stubborn and ignorant at times.
•I make mistakes.
And a lot of them. I’m not perfect. Never have been, and probably never will. I don’t see the mistake until it hits me in the face. I’ll feel bad about it because thats just who I am. It makes me stronger knowing what I did wrong and knowing I can do better next time. I’ll say things i don’t mean. Do things I’ll regret. But thats how I learn.
Those are my flaws. Love me or hate me, I don’t care anymore. But before you judge me, look at yourself first and tell me if you’ve never once lied, or made a mistake you regret?